The second anniversary of your passing was earlier this month. It seems hard to believe its only been two years. To me it just seems SO much longer. Other people feel the time has rushed by, but for me, especially in those first days and months, the time seemed everlasting. Around the 9th October I felt particularly sad, not an emotion I often allow myself, but it just seems such a shame that you aren't living our Devon dream with me. Of course it would be an entirely different adventure if you were here and we were doing things together, but you are always at the back of my mind when I do things. I know that you are a part of me, for always, nothing can change that. We are "fused" in some way for eternity, forever linked. That often gives me comfort. I often ask myself what you would think before I make decisions and cringe when I look at the state of my car and know you would be tutting if I don't keep it clean!! That raises a smile. You were such a big part of my life for so long. You always will be. Know that. Love you today, tomorrow and forever. xxx