Darling. Christmas is always a hard time of year not to be with the one you love. Although you know I'm seeing someone, it doesn't detract from all the feelings I've had and will always have for you. Our love is eternal and our bond unbreakable. Company just makes life here and now better, and I know you'd understand and support that. I so wish you were here with me enjoying life, enjoying Devon, enjoying the retirement you'd worked so hard for. Sometimes it really seems like it "isn't fair" but I try to look on the positive. You know New Years Eve will be the hardest day of the year for me, so I ask for your love and support to help me through. Your strength and courage to try to find new traditions and ways of enjoying myself. Allowing myself to look back but also to look forward with hope and optimism. Love you sweetheart, always and forever., xxxxx